Waiting

Have you ever wanted something so bad but had very little, if not zero control upon which you could attain said something?  Of course, I think that we all have had a situation where we have felt that way.  Many, many moons ago I was diagnosed with infertility, and remember like it was yesterday sitting in the doctor's office as he explained all that was "wrong" with my body and the very slim chance that David and I had to have biological children.  That was a blessing in disguise, because we turned to adoption and I could not feel more blessed to have the two amazing children, and the wonderful and sometimes painful experiences that we have had in our adoption journey.  We are now coming on 4 years of "waiting" to find another baby to add to our family.  It took about this long between James and Adaley, however I was much younger and I do not remember feeling so consumed about it.  I think that age and timelines have been a much bigger concern this time than last.  Regardless of wether your actual "biological clock" even works, apparently it can still feel like it is "ticking away"!

I have been thinking about this often lately and am trying to come to an understanding regarding our family and wether or not there will be another child for us in this lifetime.  I had received some amazing counsel months ago, and received an amazing witness that there were more, however sometimes I neglect to hear the details, i.e. when, where, how...  I began this blog to try and get the word out to many more of our friends and family and their friends and family, and it truly has helped.  Thank you to those of you who have tried to spread the word.

I truly feel so blessed that we have the two children that we do.  They are such amazing spirits and I would not trade the experience for anything.  They have the most amazing birth mom's and I know that our kids are as happy as they are, due to the fact that they have truly felt love from the very beginning of their lives.  I know that these kiddos were supposed to be in our family!

I would like to ask (if I may be so bold) that those of you who read this, please keep our family in your hearts and prayers, that we might be guided to the right birth mom and children for our family.  If you know of anyone, that may want to read about us, feel free to share this site with them.  If not, I simply ask that you keep us in mind, if something about a birth mom looking to place her child/children up for adoption ever does come up in your conversations.

As we continue in our journey of "waiting" I pray that the Lord will guide our path, that we may be able to feel the blessings of adoption one more time.  I also thank all of you who read this for your support in our journey, and pray many blessings upon you and your families.

Kindly,
-Karisa